my cousin left my house just these few minutes only. i suddenly feel so sad. feel like crying but don't dare to. i just have a scared feeling whenever people from my house leave. he'll be going back to malaysia and to australia to work. i somehow don't bear him. now, i don't think i've got anyone to talk out my heart in my family. he treated me so good here. suddenly no him, abit weird.. i suddenly feel so lonely and scared. hmmm.. i hasn't been crying becos of a person leaving a country for like many years le. recalling the past, i cried in malaysia when i was about to leave my hometown off to singapore. i'll always cried whenever i would have to leave malaysia. in malaysia, played till forgotten about stressfulness and only play all i wanted. but whenever think of singapore, would give me a fearful feeling, something like stress. hmmm... it's always studies. i cried becos i can't bear the people there, my relatives and esp my grandma, whom i stayed with her for years in childhood. it's just so unbearable..
now it's back once again. cried cos of that reason. hmmm.. i think i'll get use to it someday :)
